t h e . s a y s . o f . m y . l i f e: i don't understand why

Woke up at 1300, had 'meeyok' for lunch. Actually it was late breakfast. For her, there is nothing different between breakfast and lunch. Why? Because she used to wake up at lunch time. This is why she always skipped her breakfast =) *except for days that she has classes* After she had her breakfast lunch, she went back to her room and catched the last episode of HK drama that she's watching. Quite a sad ending. This man died for his loved one just to let her continue the rest of her life. Because someone told him that if both of them forced to be together, he would probably caused his loved one to death. Although they're engaged to each other but, they didn't have the chance to walk into this sacred church and say 'i do' to each other. How sad it is? Ok, let me ask you. What IF one day later someone comes to you and say "if you continue to be with your gf/bf, you would caused them to death." How will you feel about this? What will you do?
- Will you be like the man in this movie? Sacrificed his own life for his loved one? Or

- Break up? (Oh yea, this man was once ran away from his loves one because he didn't want to lose her)Me? i can tell you, I DO NOT KNOW HOW AND WHAT SHOULD I DO!

1. If i continued to be with my loved one, we would probably lost each other.

2. If i broke with my loved one, although it might be would definitely hurt each other, BUT, at least we're still able to see each other right? I thought those movies always tell people that if you loved someone, you should let them stayed happy and you would be happy? *lol* ( sounds good, but i don't think i'm able to do this =p )

3. You jump, i jump! I think this is the best way for two persons who love each other damn freaking much and not willing to lose each other. hahahahahahaha!oklar, be frank, i really don't know how and what to do IF this happened to me. God Bless me then.

About love, i have something to say about. Last week, someone told me that his gf asked to break in a sudden. For me, a gurl will not break with her bf in a sudden. If this happened, there must be a long, deep and cleared consideration before this decision is made by this girl. Am i right? From what this person had told, i don't think this girl has told him the main reason of breaking up. When i asked this guy, Why? He answered "i don't know, maybe bored already, maybe together for too long" Bored and together for too long should not and shall not be the reasons of breaking up. I think everyone who is in a relationship should be responsible to their partners. As you know you all will be together for a period of time, and how can you say that you're bored and you want to break in the end? This is so irresponsible right? Who doesn't wish to have an eternal love? I WISH! If everyone got bored with their current relationship and they wanted to break, so? Should the married couples divorce as well? Should the married couples who live along for 20-40 years and have children divorce because they're bored to see each other's face everyday? NO right? If everyone felt boring to see other's face for too often then? No one will be married or dating anymore right? *just assume, i don't mean this girl broke with this guy because she got bored with him okay?* Hmm.. for me, i definitely WILL NOT break with the one i love. I will be superb loyal to him =). Unless, he did something that he SHOULD NOT do.

When i tried to comfort this guy by saying something like:

- nevermind lar, a lot of luis waiting for you..

- don't sad, don't fan, don't think so much lar okay?

Guess what this guy told me? He told me that he doesn't want other girls, he only loves her. Yea, i thought everyone who got dumped will say something like this. So, i din't bother that much also. But, after that he had said this thing, and this let me felt and knew that he does really love this girl very much. He told me "if this time i manage to get her back, i wanna bring her to register asap". This is the first time for me to listen such sentence from a guy. I was slightly touched by this anyway. After he said this, i felt a lil upset. I don't know why i would had this feel, but i just had lar! I seem like understand his feeling. At first, i din't feel like asking this, but i asked at last. I asked this guy whether this girl was good to him when both of them were still together. He answered "don't know, ok gua". (They've together for at least 4-5 years) People, i bet if i asked some people out there were their gfs/bfs good to them, i bet they would give me a comfirm answer like Yes/ No, or at least "oklar" but not "don't know/ ok GUA". Right? Agree with me? I really really don't understand how could he used 'don't know' and 'ok *gua*' to answer my question. Let's say friends. I bet you can answer this question as well right if i changed the gf/bf to 'your best friend' - 'is your best friend good to you?' Can right? i'm a lil bit sick of this This guy really love this girl very much, but i told him not to be a tofu man, be stronger! I told him to show the girl that it is a loss for her to leave him but not he can't live w/o her. Hmm.. actually i knew this girl as well, but i'm not that close to her, so i can't judge what kind of person she is.This is a lil sensitive, it is better not to say too much. This is about gurl. What about guys?

Guys. *No offence - i don't mean all guys are bad okay? there are good guys too okay?

*Most of the time i don't understand why a girl is not enough for a guy? Is this another additonal behavior/personality that given by God?

*Assume all guys have gfs*

- i don't understand why guys like flirting and tackling with other girls so damn much?

- i don't understand why guys can easily fall in love/ have feeling with other girls when they're in this so called upset mode?

- i don't understand why guys like to cheat? (i admit that sometimes gfs cause guys to cheat because guys don't wanto argue. But still, some guys do cheat or lie because they have more than one gf*)

- i don't understand why guys like to see/ meet up with their gfs for the first few months, and after that they will tell that they need freedom and time to be with friends?

- i don't understand why guys always tell their gfs that they only love them when they're caught being liking other girls?

- i don't understand why guys like their gfs to pretend stupid or actually stupid in front of them? (easy to be cheated ar?)

- i don't understand why guys always ask for chance when they did something betrayed their gfs? (they shouldn't ask for chance because they SHOULD NOT HAVE done anything that is WRONG and SORRY to their gfs)

- i don't understand why guys call girls who flirt around with guys/ or have many male friends

- bitch? (I'm NOT girl who flirts around ah!) When these guys flirt around with girls, what should i call?

- i don't understand why guys love their gfs but like other girls?

- i don't understand why guys like to look at other girls from time to time, even when they're together with gfs? (i personally think that this action represents a 'non-respectability' to girls/ vice versa)

This is the first 10 'i don't understand'.

ah haaaaaa, i think this is the first blog of me that blogging about particular 'topic' but not all about my own life anymore. alRight, i need to leave now. Goodnight^^